Just about the only resolution I’ve kept for the year is the resolution not to allow myself to remain entangled in a web of failed resolution guilt. Bravo on a job well done. For the rest of my resolutions? Well, job not so hot – but not to worry.
May was a fickle month promising both to be hectic and relaxing with equal abilities for serious self inspection and reflection. In a matter of speaking, it did just that – but without my needed sticktoitivness. Not counting today, I have nine days to either make or break the already readjusted May monthly goals or to forever let them go. I already have my June goals – June goals I love even though some are lofty…and I’d like to just skip ahead now to begin on them. However, for now I’m giving my old list a glance over:
- Walk three to four times a week…restarting the Mayo Clinic plan which begins with a 15 minute brisk walk
Oh how I hope one day I’ll look back on this and laugh. Actually I walked, but not one time did I even bother to relook my Mayo Clinic walking plan up. I walked in Canada a lot – and loved every moment thinking that I was finally rejuivinated enough to return home and keep up the habit. Then I hit our hot, humid thing we call air and it was no thank you! I have however, joined Curves and will have to force my way into the poorly airconditioned car in order to get there and exercise in relative air conditioned comfort. We’ll see what the end of June brings, shall we? - Stop drinking all colas (I don’t drink a lot…but when traveling, etc. it is always more tempting to order this over water or tea)
Yea…this lasted until we were hopelessly lost in a little town well after both lunch and dinner. The golden arches of McDonald’s gave way to their finest fill it yourself soda fountains and Jamie, knowing full well that she promised, subcummed. And then she did it again later that week and until finally she just said, if the restaurant serves real silverware I will order water…other than that, it is the soda fountain for me, yeah! I didn’t do so bad really, and did drink a lot of water. But the zero tolerance thing, so easily could have been done, just wasn’t followed through. I’m not going to scratch this one completely however…for the next nine days I think I can pull a no soda drink pledge. - Reorganize my pantry
I actually forgot this was on my list – and I totally did it yesterday! Now tell me I don’t rock! In fact, I’m just this close to taking pictures of my fine lauder and storage areas to post on-line. - Organize a Women’s Night Out
No points off for me on this one. I was out of town for an overlapping two calendar weeks and now the homeschool conventions down south are calling more than half the church ladies to southern Florida. There’s no point in even organizing a June date until June (I find in most circles I’m the only one that plans far-far ahead, or willing to do so at any rate). This one is bumped till next month…and without guilt.
- Create the bare-bones for homeschool 2008-2009 (things like lesson planners, etc)
Done and done! I was going to post these, too, wasn’t I? Well, I did the formating before leaving and worked in the late evenings and on the plane rides plugging in personal items. I’m combining them this week and then posting everything in one easy catalog for readers who are interested before the end of the month (read: Next Week). Vola! - Cleanout all blogrolls, pare down to, oh, say 10 (which is about all I can visit in a day)…then start commenting. Because I subscribe to so many, but read only a fraction, I feel guilty and burdened so I tend not to take the time to comment.
While I have not started this task, sad to say, that I’ve added to my blogroll…just for curiosity’s book marking sake. However, one night this week I’m going to be ruthless and just cut. I hate limiting myself to 10 only because there are a number of blogs I just read because they are interesting not because they invite interaction (think: newsy, political) and then there are the blogs of my friends but since we normally comment to one another on common message boards versus their actual blogs, maybe that’d be ok? Nope, can’t be guiltfree entirely with this one. Hmmm…maybe I should have Monday reads, Tuesday reads, etc? I wonder if that would make things easier? - Get rid of all Facebook, myspace and the like accounts…I just can’t do them with any level of enjoyment. Because I have them and don’t respond to IMs and SuperPokes, I feel guilty and burdened so I avoid them even more.
I’ve been postponing this one for the same sit down needed to delete blog reads. - Read a freaking book already
Almost done. This has to be one of the most embarrassing things I found necessary to put on a resolution list. Online reading has made things like books take a back seat. Cable channels with documentaries have fulfilled most of my need for something non-fluff. Books are just so…well, darned inconvienent at this stage in my life. Which is why I was delighted that, in response to some personal things going on at home, my Mother’s Day gifts consisted entirely of books about being a mom. I’ll have to do a log entry about some things I haven’t shared on line. I’ve had a terrible time with feeling the guilt of being a mom. No, not being a mom, but not being the mom that I thought or swore that I would be…and how I project that condemnation into the thoughts of what I fear the kids have and sometimes, yes, even my husband. I need encouragement just like everyone else, and when faced against the negative voices either in my head or coming from my family’s mouths, or the lack and indifference I perceive from my ILs…well…let’s just say the types of books are wonderful, particularly since my kids picked them out on their own having followed a particularly difficult day between the us. They weren’t books of how to be a better mom, but in how to recognize that hey, being a mom is more difficult than what we once presumed, but despite mistakes there’s a lot of good that was done as well.
- Take one day trip by my lonesome
This has not happened yet, and I’m not sure where on my calendar I can squeeze a day like this before the end of the month. I’ll have to see what I can make happen and, if a no-go, then I’ll just bump it into one of the summer months.
